Thursday, February 21, 2013

Baseball is back!!!!

Well.... almost! 

Last weekend to kick it off we attended the Tampa Bay Rays fan fest at Tropicana stadium. I was very excited about attending for the first time. Although I think I was expecting it to be something different than it was I am still glad that we attended. It was super cool to have an opportunity to walk on the field and just walk all over, like we owned the place.

This what the "grass" looks like up close and personal. I think it was last year that they went to astroturf. My brother in law was able to get dirt up from underneath the turf! HA!!!! 

There were lots of things to do there for the younger kids. There was a video game station, a pitching station and a hitting station as well. Some lucky people got to play MLB against David Price. Of course we left before I got to see that happen. DAMMIT!!!

One of the coolest things for me was the clubhouse tour. It was so neat to see where they get ready for games.

All the players and managers have their own chairs and mailboxes too! Maddon's mailbox was overflowing a bit!! Hee hee!!! 

And of course the highlight of my day was seeing this guy..... 

MATT JOYCE!!!! OMG... such a cutie and a good ball player too. Don't worry I don't just appreciate his good looks. 

I am looking forward to going to a handful of spring training games. I remember last year at this time I was able to go and watch a full squad practice. That was AWESOME and I wish I could have done it again this year, but ironically enough it was the same day as fan fest. Didn't understand that at all. 

Who else is glad that baseball is back? Did anyone else attend a fan fest for their respective teams?? Please share!!!! 

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

One year ago....

One year ago this month I was let go from my job as a legal assistant for a family law attorney. 

It was the BEST thing that could have ever happened to me. That job was draining me. I didn't believe in what we were doing and I didn't care for the way that she was practicing or the way she was treating her associate and myself. She worked from home 90% of the time and didn't always help the clients the way that it seemed she should. She would also make me lie to clients and I was uncomfortable with that as well. All in all, I was disenfranchised with the whole idea of what the law stands for and represents. Its not fair. I do not feel that it provides justice for the victims, at least not for the people that we were representing, people getting divorced. It's all a matter of interpretation, or manipulation, and the lawyers job is to present their idea of what this certain law is saying. Now don't get me wrong the law did work in our favor sometimes, but not always. Such is life though. And it was getting to me. Seeing people come in and tear apart families and 20 year marriages, just got to be so disheartening. I became jaded and well, I am a romantic. Bottom line is that it wasn't the right place for me to be.   

I didn't go back to work right away. I stayed unemployed for about 3 months and it was also one of the best things I could have done for myself. It was a good mental and physical break. I hadn't stopped since dad passed away. And I was in such a negative place with that job that I had fallen into a depression of sorts. So the time off was necessary. While I was unemployed, I wanted to find something to do to make it so that I could work from home. But I don't have a strong enough passion for anything to make a living working from home. So I went back to work. And to be honest I didn't go on a lot of interviews. Only one! 

That's right... 1! 

And I got the job!! 

Now.... I am so happy. 

I love where I work and for the most part, I really like the people I work with. I went from one extreme to another ... leaving the legal field and entering the medical field was like night and day. And now I can't imagine it any other way. I have been there about 9 months and I am going to be getting a new position already. YAY!! And while my previous employer was good to me in some ways, these people are good to me in other ways. They have had an employee appreciation week since I have been there, we all received gift cards at Thanksgiving and Christmas and for Valentine's day we were provided with pizza and other goodies. And now they are offering an employee of the month program where you get $100 and your name is put in a pool to win a cruise for 2 at the end of the year. Plus there is room for growth. Can't say the same about the other place. 

A year can bring a lot of changes, both good and bad, and I have to say that this year has proven to be nothing but good things! What changes have you seen in the past year? Were they good or bad??

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

It's not the camera... it's me

I have a problem. 

I have this almost crippling expectation that my camera will take awesome pictures and all I will have to do is point and click. 

That is not the case, right fellow photogs???

You have to know lighting, exposure, ISO, aperture, shutter speed and the list goes on. And for the most part I have a basic understanding on aperture and ISO. Lighting, composition and exposure elude me. One of the reasons that I love my 35 mm lens is because it can be used in low light places and 

Going through the pictures from the wedding proved to be rather disappointing. Most of my indoor pictures turned out awful. There was a lot of noise and some sort of reddish coloring in the pictures that I couldn't figure out. And even though I have lightroom, I am not fully educated on how to use it 100%. I am ordering this book for myself so I can have some sort of reference guide. 

The camera that the other photographer used was more advanced than mine and it showed. Not to mention that her vantage point was better than mine. I was up front closer to the actual ceremony and she was at the back. The sun was directly behind the couple and that made for some interesting shots. Now don't get me wrong some of my pictures I really liked, but I liked hers better. And while I continue to blame my camera, I need to realize that the camera isn't the one that took the pictures. The camera was merely the tool that I used. I am the one the pressed the shutter release button.

I expect it to be easy, because others make it look easy. I fail to realize that these people have more experience because they have been doing it longer and they have practiced. Or because they have training. And I don't. I expect it to come naturally and it doesn't, at least not for me.

I know I am being overly critical of myself and I need to stop that. But I set the expectations for myself too high. I expect the pictures to be just totally awesome and editing would be a cinch and that was not the case. Oy! The only way I am going to get over this is to practice more. I just need to make it a priority! 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

My First Wedding!

.... not MY wedding and when I do get married, I plan on that being my ONLY wedding.

Saturday, February 2nd I helped a friend photograph a wedding for the first time. It was exciting and I was a little nervous at times, since I feel like I do not understand photography enough to take on the responsibility of a wedding, but I think it went well. 

It was definitely an interesting experience to be at a wedding where I didn't know anyone and where I was allowed to, or rather where I was more at ease taking pictures of everything and not feeling like I was being judged. It's a privilege to be apart of someone's special day like that and to be a total stranger. I understand how photographers and brides become close. You spend time together, talk and develop a connection. And as the photographer you are capturing special moments from one of the happiest days of the couples lives, so your role is important. These are moments they aren't going to be able to recreate so you need to try and grab them while you can.

The couple will have their pictures tomorrow. I am anxious to see how they like the pictures. I would do another wedding as a favor, I don't know that I would consider taking this up as a profession. 

If you want to check out the pictures that my friend Amy and I took I have a photobucket album set up.