Sunday, September 30, 2012

Getting Healthy by Osmosis?? Hey it could happen right?!

It's a theory I have. I think if you THINK thin, you will BE thin.

HAHA! I know that is a crapshoot, but that doesn't stop me from doing it. 

I often think that I would really enjoy running or bike riding once I get there, but it's the getting me there that is the problem. I get excited and actually feel better just thinking about it because I know that the results would be positive. I have these ideas of grandeur of being physically fit and healthy, but sadly that's as far as I get sometimes. I am not sure what the hurdle is that I can't seem to get over. 

I find all of the inspirational things on Pinterest inspirational, I really do, but sadly they have not diverged me from my "if I think it, it will come" mentality that I seem to have toward being healthy.

So basically I need to suck it up and get off my ass. What am I afraid of happening? I need to stop over analyzing things and stop worrying about the pain or discomfort and JUST DO IT!!!

Friday, September 28, 2012

Nikon or Canon? Decisions decisions!

I am conflicted. 

I currently own a Nikon D40 and while there is nothing really wrong with the camera, I feel that it is time for an upgrade. So I am looking at my options. And while I am not a professional or anything, merely a hobbyist, but I do feel that it is time for an upgrade. I mean the D40 only has 6 megapixels... um yea that's low! 

First I considered the Nikon D3200:

The main thing that attracted me to this camera was a) it's new and b) it has 24 megapixels. But when I went to Best Buy the camera sales man told me that the processor was not as good as the D5100. 

I liked this camera because of the flip screen and the editing options that are available in the camera and the increased megapixels from my D40, it has 16 I believe. But honestly I almost never use the in-camera edits with my D40. So that is not really a deal breaker. But there is something about the Canon cameras that I am attracted to. I have always found their photos to be brighter. When I would mess around with the camera in the stores, the photos looked so much brighter in the display screen. They look sharper and well just better.

Canon has recently released the T4i with 18 megapixels. One day while perusing the camera section at Best Buy, the sales man was educating me about the differences between the cameras. He told me that the processor was better on the Canon. So I have done research and more research and I am not sure that I am convinced that one camera is better than the other. 

The T4i has a flip out screen, which I do like and has some nice in-camera edits, like the Nikons. This camera also allows you to snap photos from the LCD and it's a touch screen too. While it's my preference to shoot with the camera up to my eye, I am sure that using the LCD to shoot could come in handy at times. One thing that does bother me is in one of the reviews I read on is that the battery on the Canon only allows for 440 pictures. I am not sure how I feel about that. I mean I could always get another battery to carry with me, but I am not sure I want to have to do that. Plus the camera settings may play a huge factor in that, I am not 100% certain. 

Part of the cause of my confusion is that I have a lens for the Nikon that I love, it's a 35mm 1.8 lens. it's just great. And from what I see Canon doesn't seem to have anything like that, that is reasonably priced. Their lenses are a bit steep in price. They do offer a 50mm 1.8 for about $100 which is reasonable. But I just love the 35mm lens. I don't know if a lens is enough reason to stick with a certain camera brand though. I also read somewhere that Nikon is better for low light pictures, but I wonder if that even matters with all of the photo editing programs that are out there now. 

Let's face it either of these cameras is an upgrade from what I currently have, I just feel like I can't trust my own instincts. I am nervous about spending the money. I can put this on my Best Buy card and pay over time, but it's an investment none the less. And the more reviews that I read, the more confused I get. ACK!! So what to do??? Decisions decisions!! 

Which camera brand do you have? Why did you chose that one? What is important to you when buying a camera?? Do I stay with Nikon or switch to Canon? 

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Things I miss

- having weekdays off
- Will & Grace marathons
- waking up whenever and knowing I didn't have to be anywhere
- having weekdays off with firefighter
- picking the kids up from school
- being able to visit mom at work
- being able to hang with my stay at home mommy friend
- being able to stay up late, i am a night owl by nature

Now... don't get me wrong I like my job and I am grateful to be employed, but there are days when I do miss the freedom of unemployment. It was nice to have that time. I wish I had done more with it. I wish I had embraced it more and did some things that I wanted to do. I wanted to take more pictures, take some classes, start a business venture, and the list could go on and on. Oh well, I can't go back in time. 

All I can do is move forward... 

What are you missing right now????

Thursday, September 20, 2012

The birds, they are a-comin

 And no I do not mean these kinds of birds... 

I am referring to snowbirds. 
And no I do not mean these Snowbirds... 

I am referring to the slow driving flock of old people who arrive from our northern neighbors to occupy our towns and essentially take it over. At least that is how it feels at times. I know that their presence helps to boost the economy but their presence at times is insufferable. 

Let the road rage begin!!!!! 

Monday, September 17, 2012

Yes Sir Lieutenant!!!

I am looking forward to working with Firefighter again in my new position as the unofficially official photographer for the volunteer firefighters. I mean that is how we met after all, working together. I have to say that I didn't hate it and at times I do miss it. However, when we were working together, we were equals.

Now he would be considered my superior. Oy to the vey!  

(taken before promotion to Lieutenant - but he looked handsome)

It is going to take a lot of restraint for me to not speak to him the way I would as his girlfriend when we are on a job together. I am going to have to remember that he is the Lieutenant and that I need to set an example of how he should be spoken to by his squad. 

On Saturday I caught myself a few times talking to him as his girlfriend and I reigned it in really quick. I am not sure how I feel about it either. I mean, there are going to be times when he could be firm with me about something, and I have to learn not to take it personally. It's a working arrangement. 

Then this brings to mind, how I am to speak to the guys and how they are to speak to me. Is it free reign? This whole situation is new for me. I have never been involved in a group like this where there is such a strict and highly respected chain of command. Ya know? It's going to be a learning experience.

I am a little concerned that at times it may feel like it will affect the relationship, but I don't think it will too badly. I think Firefighter and I work well together when we are doing a project. It seems like I am more able to set things aside and focus on the task at hand. He never really fluctuates in his moods so he won't be an issue. It's going to be all me. I have to learn that his tone may not meant something I think it means, etc. 

Of course I could be completely over thinking this and it won't even be an issue, but you never know. 

Do you work with your significant other? Has it affected your relationship? If so for the good or for the bad?

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Excuse me, I'm with the Fire Department

Yes, I get to say those 5 cool words now. Well, sort of. It's a work in progress. 

Firefighter has been promoted to a Lieutenant with the Volunteers (yippy!!!!) and one of his first acts of business was to get me involved. He knows that I like to take pictures and his Captain wants more exposure for the volunteers.... see where I am going with this?!?!? Hopefully down the line I could be given permission to attend a fire (that's a weird statement to make) and take photos, especially if the volunteers are involved.

The volunteers have their own engine, #39. So where ever they go, I will go.

Yesterday was my first day at my new position (hee hee), and it was a long, busy one. We attended a triathlon and an open house for an updated fire house. 

The open house had some of the trucks you see here open and on display for the public to look at all of their equipment. 

The triathlon was one of the most unusual I had ever seen. The people were dressed up in costumes and there were less then fit people there. The triathlon was referred to as the triathlon for slackers, so basically anyone and I do mean ANYONE could participate. It was a typical swim, run and bike event. 

I so crashed when I got home yesterday. It was EXHAUSTING!!!! And the icing on the cake?? I somehow managed to delete some of my favorite pictures from the early morning when the guys were checking their engine. It was still dark out and they had all the lights on the engine going and everything was pulled out... I loved it. And I don't know what happened when I got home. I was soooooooo mad!!!! ARGH! Hopefully I will have another opportunity to get more of those. 

We have another double event day coming up on September 29th and I have to split my time. Should be interesting. 

I am excited to see where this will lead. Hopefully only good things. 

Saturday, September 15, 2012

New TV Show Love

I have my mother to thank for my new TV show obsession!!! 

THE MENTALIST!!!!!!!!!!! OMG... Simon Baker is totally ADORABLE in this show. If you haven't watched it you should check it out!!! I am hooked. It ranks up there with "Law and Order SVU" for me. I can watch that show over and over and over..... and over again!! 

Thanks Mom! 

The Mentalist Poster

What TV shows do you love? Anything new out that you would suggest? 

Friday, September 14, 2012

Coming Soon to a Theater Near You

Summer is big season for movies, and sadly, I never got to the theater to see any movies. But there are a few movies coming out in the fall that I am looking forward to seeing. 

The first one I want to see is "Trouble with the Curve" starring Clint Eastwood, Justin Timberlake and Amy Adams. 

Trouble with the Curve Poster

I love baseball movies. "Field of Dreams" and "Moneyball" are total faves of mine. Sadly, there are classic baseball movies that I haven't seen, that I need to see. I need to watch "The Natural" , "Eight Men Out" and I am sure there are others out there that I am missing.

The Paperboy Poster

I am totally robbing the cradle, here and I don't care.. ZAC EFRON IS HOT!!! "The Paperboy" staring Zac, Nicole Kidman, John Cusack and Matthew McConaughey comes out in October. This is about a reporter that returns to his Florida hometown to investigate a death. Not a riveting or OMG I have to see it plot, but did you see that Zac Efron is in it? That's enough for me. He is a good little actor!!!  

Head Games Poster 

I am not a huge fan of documentaries, but "Head Games" has peaked my interest. There are many professional sports players, primarily football players, that are now having brain issues. It's not really all that surprising with all of the news coming out about the consequences of concussions. There has been a lot of coverage on ESPN about this subject. It's something that needs to be addressed. It's a very important topic.

This Is 40 Poster 

Did you see "Knocked Up"? "This is 40" is a sequel to it revolving around Pete and Debbie... The sister to Kather Hiegel's character in "Knocked Up". I LOOOVE Leslie Mann... She is HILARIOUS! Her and Paul Rudd together .. MAGIC!!! Can't wait!! 

What movies are you looking forward to seeing??? 


Last night I was minding my own business, sitting on the couch watching TV and all of a sudden I got hit with a vivid, almost life like vision of my father in his hospital room. I was remembering one of the days I visited him the weekend before he passed away. 

The memory was strong and like a vice grip on my heart. I tried to push it aside, but it was not having it. I finally just allowed myself to relive what little details I could remember from that day and embrace it. I cried, a little not sobs or heavy wails, but just enough. 

What I recall of that day in particular is coming to see him by myself while wearing a purple top and black skirt. We chatted for a bit and then the nurse came in to check his bandage. He had had his left leg amputated the week before. Up until this point I had not seen it and when I caught a glimpse I went pale and almost got sick. I sat in the bathroom while the nurse changed the dressing and when I was reassured that it was done, I emerged from the bathroom. 

I don't remember specific conversation, but I do remember standing on his left side at one point and his eyes welling up because we were talking about what he was going through. It broke my heart, and even now as I sit and type this the memory of his face in that moment kills me. 

I am not sure where it came from but I am having this need, this overwhelming need, to hear his voice. Perhaps it's because I can see his face so clearly, yet I can't seem to remember the sound of his voice as much as I would like. And I have nothing with his voice on it to even listen to, to fulfill that need. It's a need that will go unmet and it will forever gnaw at me. 

In this moment right now, I would love nothing more than to talk to or meet a medium. I know it's not for everyone, and not all people believe, but I do. I may be naive for thinking this but when I watch "Long Island Medium", I get chills watching her make connections for people. It's insane to me that she would know things  about total strangers that she does. I wish she lived closer, I would give almost anything to hear from my dad. There are so many things I would want to ask him.

We need memories. The good and the bad.  They are storytellers. I welcome this memory and any others that come my way. I need them. 


Are you grieving a lost loved one? Have you had strong memories come to you without being prompted? Would you talk to a medium???