I have lost myself.
I have no one to blame but myself.
i literally feel like i have been sleeping through life these last 13 years.
i didn't complete college. i attempted several times, but was never able to get a handle on what i wanted to be when i grew up.
i have been stuck in a line of work that i dislike, again, for the last 7 years.
i need to do something for me, to help me find my way.
i look at people around me they have jobs/careers they love or they are starting families and i still feel like i am in hight school.
how did i get here?
how did i let this happen?
i guess I was caught up in the "now" and didn't really plan for the future.
now i am kicking myself...
i have a job that i dislike
i have no real defined passion for anything in particular in life
i am just lost...
i am trying to get my ass in gear and go back to school
i truly feel that will help me
it will give me a direction with life and make me feel like i am worth something.
that's hard to type...
i am not a stupid person... i just have too many interests and it's been hard to narrow it down to one thing that i want to venture into.
it's hard to pick a road when they are all so appealing.
how do you decide?
there has to be something that speaks to you, to your heart, i feel, in order to fully invest yourself in something. i do not have this with my current job.
i am starting to think i would be better off working for myself. but how do i get there??? and is it too late?
oy... i know that i have talked about this stuff on here before... i vowed not to make this blog a depressing place and i am not going to air my negative and pessimistic thoughts on here. this i just needed to get out. i feel like this was a cathartic entry.
thanks for letting me share.