So right now I am at a cross roads with work. I am very conflicted. My boss offered me more money to become a paralegal....something i have determined that i have no desire whatsoever in becoming.... and the new "lady" is being of more assistance to her in that department then i am. and since i haven't expressed an interest she isn't really giving me paralegal type things to do... and i get it. i am experiencing the weirdest thing... deep down i do not care that i am not learning more about being a paralegal, but then on the surface i do care. if that makes sense. i just don't know what i want to be doing right now.... i know that i am not happy at my job. i do not like working for attorneys. they are babies and they are lazy. oh and they are slobs. argh.... and i hate dealing with clients and making phone calls... woe is me right? i have all these thoughts and then i count my blessings that i have a job. in a perfect world i would be my own boss... but i don't know what i would be my own boss of... i am not good at any one thing that could be marketed or anything. my photography, if you want to call it that, is hit or miss... i can write poems, but they come and go... so i don't stick to any one thing... blech... i am just not my normal peppy self.