So, Firefighter and I went and looked at a house in North Port last Sunday (I will post pics over the weekend). And I am not going to lie, I liked it and could almost see us living there.
However..... I don't think it's the right time right now. It's too soon.
I can't even begin to imagine being that far from my family right now. It's just not something I would be 100% invested in. Not to mention when I asked Firefighter if he saw us living there, he was like, meh. Well... I am sure as hell not going to move away if his response to that question is meh and I have anxiety about it.
We do seem to have a reprieve though. The house is a foreclosure and there is a moratorium going on right now for foreclosures. SOOOO.... if this house falls into the moratorium and comes out in say 6 or more months, maybe we will feel differently. Who knows.
And believe me no one has wanted to get out of where we live more then me.... but I have to be realistic here.
I don't like my job enough to commute therefore I would want to find another job down there and then I fear that I would essentially make myself a hermit there and not visit my family.
it's too soon after dad passed.
it's not close to my family at all.
and neither of us was 100% confident that we could see ourselves living there.
So those reasons make me think that it's best to stay put for a little while longer and just make the best of this crap situation we are in right now.
ugh.... i hate being an adult sometimes.