Tuesday, September 28, 2010

what is a bandwagon fan?

The Rays have clinched their playoff berth position. YAY!! So exciting!!! Now of course, on Facebook, I have Red Sox and Yankees fans are saying that Rays fans don't have the right to be celebrating because most of us are bandwagon fans and because people aren't going to the games and we are only fans because we have a good record. Well in my opinion anyone who doesn't live in New York or Boston, or wasn't born and raised there can be considered a bandwagon fan. Most of the people on my Facebook that are Yankee or Red Sox fans were born and raised in FLORIDA!! Why would you not support your local MLB team? The answer - it's easier to root for a team that is already established and has a massive fan base, then it is to root for a team that is up and coming. The Tampa Bay Rays franchise has been around for 15 years, they are still growing, and we have a good young team right now. Hopefully we will continue to be successful, what fan doesn't want their team to be successful?!? I just wish that we would be able to keep all of the free agents we have right now (this is another post for another day). It's kind of exciting to watch a team grow and conquer. All we need is to win the World Series and then maybe people will take us seriously. 

In the same breath however, the fans in this area are very fickle. I believe it's because there are a LOT of people who have relocated from the northern states to Florida for retirement. When the Yanks or the Red Sox are in town...LOOK OUT... it's packed at Tropicana Stadium!!! There are more visitor fans in the stands then home fans. And you know, it's sad. It's almost no wonder Evan Longoria and David Price vocalized their frustrations about the lack of attendance at recent games. I for one do not blame them. Why aren't they getting more support??? 

To be honest, I have become more of a Rays fan in the last 3 years, because Firefighter is getting more involved in watching the games and explaining it to me. It has become a great way for us to bond. I was born and raised in Florida, in the pseduo Tampa Bay area. The Rays are my local MLB baseball team, so therefore I support them. Granted, I do not go to a lot of the games...funds are tight, but that doesn't make me less of a fan. I love that we are rooting for the Rays together. He is teaching me about baseball and explaining to me the progression of baseball teams. It's bonded us!!! (awe...*tear*) 

So for those of you who are baseball or football or any sports fans, how do you define a bandwagon fan?

Monday, September 27, 2010

weekend in review

I can't believe that it is already Monday...again! And it's almost the end of September...OY! Where does the time go... But I digress... 

Nothing special happened Friday night. Firefighter, Roommate and I made a trip to Sam's. Firefighter went out and I stayed home and just chilled. It was much needed. 

This weekend I had to great opportunity to spend some bonding time with my mom! On Saturday we went to her eye appointment and picked out new glasses and then we went to Target for some supplies. (I managed to leave spending UNDER $50, a rarity for me!)  Then I helped her set up her fantasy football lineup...if she wins, I want full credit, if she loses, I was never there! 

Then I went up to the hospital to visit my dad, yes he is still there.... Hopefully he will be discharged and sent to the rehab facility soon! He is getting antsy. He has been there 3 weeks today. OY! I think this is one of his longest stints in the actual hospital, at least that I can remember. 

After the hospital, Firefighter and I made our way down to North Port to hang with some friends and scope a potential house. When we arrived it was too dark to really see the inside, but we got a good idea on the outside, and it was enough to make us want to walk inside. So I contacted Realtor and she will set it up. However since this house is a foreclosure, there isn't much that has been disclosed, so I do NOT know if it has the dreaded Chinese drywall. I am praying not. Afterward we met up with some friends who live there and watched the UFC fights. Not my thing, but we had a good time nonetheless. 

Sunday Firefighter and I went shopping again for sandals for him. Boy when he is fixated on something and wants it there is no stopping him! Thank goodness he finally found a pair or I think I would have screamed. We stopped by Best Buy to see a friend that was working and then we went home and watched the original "Wall Street" to prepare for the sequel. (Yes we do do that!) I could barely keep my eyes open and found it confusing. Later we went to Engineer's house and had dinner and watched the new HBO series "Boardwalk Empire". Note to HBO exec Steve Buscemi should NEVER EVER do sex scenes... EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ewwww.... And again I feel asleep. Nothing seems to be holding my interest lately. 

So now it's Monday and I am back to the grind... I hope this week goes slow, but fast. Another busy weekend lies ahead. Will it ever stop?!?!? 

Hope you all had a great weekend.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

i hate money

I don't know what to do. 

I want out of this house. 

We can afford it but there is the possibility that we would be living paycheck to paycheck. Firefighter thinks we should wait until he gets a job. Well how much longer is that gonna be!??! He hasn't even started volunteering yet. 

I am tired of thinking about this and wish that I could just make a decision. Either we are gonna stay here or go. If we stay here I am still gonna be miserable. I am also tired of always talking about this, as I am sure you are tired of reading it. 

I just want to cry. 

Friday, September 17, 2010

silver lining

I wish that I was able to write a more positive post, but this week's events have been anything but positive. It has been an emotional roller coaster full of tears and heartbreak. And to say that this week dragged, is an understatement. It crept along at a tortoise pace or a snails pace, whichever is slowest. I am ridiculously happy that it is finally Friday.

I mentioned in a previous post that we found out that my father had to lose his left leg. We knew it was coming for a while, but it still stung when the new was actually broken to us. We had a date set for it to take place Tuesday, Sept. 21. However, due to a series of events it was moved up to this passed Wednesday. 

I spent the night at my parent's house Tuesday night to be with my mother, who is taking this very, very hard. Neither of us really slept that night. Which, is a first for me. Over the last 7 years dad has been in the hospital more times then I can count on one hand. Each time he has surgery I get nervous, and only after I find out that he has made it through can I breathe a sigh of relief. Since he had escalated health issues on this particular trip, I was increasingly concerned. But, as always, he pulled through.

I have to give him credit, given the hand he has been recently dealt he is in great spirits. I wonder if it's a front at times, but if it is, he is very convincing.  His attitude and ability to joke about basically everything is infectious. I feel better because I know that he is good with what is going on. Not his preference naturally, but he has accepted it. He has come to terms with it and that has made it easier for me to grasp. Granted, a lot of the obstacles we have faced over the last 7 years have been caused by him and things he did in his past, but you can't go back and undo them. You have to deal with the hand you get dealt.

The silver lining in this situation is that he will not be in any more pain. He was in such a great amount of pain that for the last month or better he hardly left the house.  That is no way to live. Also, the doctors are pretty confident that we may have taken care of the problem now and that we shouldn't have any more of these flare ups anytime soon. Comforting... but I will remain a little cynical I am sure. After all that we have been through with dad, it's hard to trust a doctor's word anymore. 

I can't help however, to feel guilty at times. If I let myself think about it, as I tend to do with things, I can't help but think that each step I take, is a step he won't be able to take. I have legs, and he doesn't. It isn't fair. I am so much more aware of things that I can do, that he can no longer do. I know there are prosthetics out there, and God willing we can get him a good pair. 

I am selfish. I want him to get better so he can walk, so he can drive... I want him to walk me down the aisle at my wedding. 

Sorry for the depressing post. I must say that at times it's nice to just be able to put things out there to the world for strangers to read. It's very freeing! 

Saturday, September 11, 2010


I am not always a fan of remakes, be it a song or a movie. However, I am particularly not fond of people doing remakes too close together. My main issue right now is "Don't Stop Believin". The cast of Glee did it for their show not that long ago, maybe last year, and it's really great, I quite enjoy it, though I have never seen the show. Now there is some guy names George Lamond that has also remade the song...seriously?? Couldn't he have found another song to remake?? Journey's music is classic and while he didn't totally slaughter it, he didn't do it any justice. 

Just a thought...

My rant for the day!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

too trusting

I am a trusting soul. it never fails. if i know a person and they introduce me to someone i automatically trust the new person by association. could this be a bad thing for me in the long run? yes! i could be that one person they decide to screw over and that would not be cool at all. I haven't been screwed over as of yet, but with the house thing looming it makes me very aware of this trait that I have and that I need to be aware of it and the possible ramifications. In situations like this its best to be weary and not TOO trusting. Does it come from being too naive and gullible? Perhaps! I just tend to believe the best of people. Which, in long run can only hurt me since there are so many people out there determined to screw you over.

decisions decisions

Firefighter and I went down to North Port a few weeks ago and looked at a house, and I use the term looked loosely. We pulled up to the house, parked in the driveway and walked around the house. We got a nice look inside, from the porch. It's a very nice house. It's a large house. There is no one in the back, on either side, or directly across the street from the house, except for the mailbox, which is weird, Anyway - the house is 4 bedroom (a requirement for Firefighter), a DISHWASHER, 2 bathroom and is approximately 2500 square feet with a 2 car garage and is ONLY $89,900... Nice house right?!!? Even nicer price!!!! Well there is a hitch. It has the Chinese drywall. NOT GOOD!!!  From Wikipedia : 

The 2009 Chinese drywall controversy is a health and safety issue involving defective drywall manufactured in China and imported by the United States starting in 2001. Laboratory tests of samples for volatile chemicals have identified emissions of the sulfurous gases carbon disulfidecarbonyl sulfide, and hydrogen sulfide. These emissions, which have the odor of rotten eggs, worsen as temperature and humidity rise and cause copper surfaces to turn black and powdery, a chemical process indicative of reaction with hydrogen sulfide. Copper pipes, wiring, and air conditioner coils are affected, as well as silver jewelry. Homeowners have reported respiratory tract infectionssinus problems and nosebleeds.

Having said that, the amount of work will be extensive. We would have to remove the drywall, plumbing and electrical... So basically EVERYTHING!!!! Not only would it be additional money, but contractors would be involved and all that... I am nervous about finding people that I can trust to work on a house. People get screwed by contractors all the time. 

Needless to say, I am hesitant. I am nervous! Why shouldn't I be?!?! It's an undertaking! I am nervous about the financial situation, I am nervous about taking on the huge responsibility of owing my own house... just thinking about that scares me and I begin to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I have been the driving force to get out of the house we are in and now I am the one pulling back. I guess I would be more confident if Firefighter was the driving force. It would make me more confident. I know that he is now on board, but he wasn't for a while and I just hope that we are making a wise decision, whatever house we get. Then there is the job factor to take into consideration. We would be living 30-45 mins away from where we work. If I liked my job that wouldn't be an issue. We LIVE in where we live now... and before we would move there are a lot of things to take into consideration. ALL of our friends are basically located here, my family is here, life is basically here... is it wise to reside where you do not necessarily LIVE?!? OY!!!! This is something I can't seem to get off my mind. It's driving me crazy. I feel like there are a lot of things that we would have to sacrifice and I just want to make sure the reward is worth the sacrifice.  And I have a feeling I may need to get a new car soon.... OY! It never ends... And I think deep down I am pulling back on this because I know Firefighter wanted to wait until he got a job job, but I think he know gets that we have to get out of the house his parents are "renting" to us. 

We still don't even know that we could afford this house. HA HA!!!!! My dad has a contractor already lined up to give me an estimate... I was like slow down papa.... moving a little too fast, let's see if we can afford the house, and get into the house and then we will go from there. 

This isn't the only house out there, but it seems to be most of the things that we want. How do you not take it into consideration?? 

There is just SO much to think about! In the same breath, I get excited thinking about the life we could create down there and the home we could create together and that almost makes it all feel worth it. 

I know I haven't exactly been the queen of positivity and fun things on here lately, but sometimes unleashing on here and getting all my thoughts out help me to think more clearly. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Too much TV soooo little time

There are too many tv shows out there that i want to watch to keep track of. I would love to be able to actually watch and follow most of the following shows. 

Grey's Anatomy - I actually watch this show on a weekly basis and I am very faithful.

Brother's and Sister's - I was doing good with this show and then lost track.

Mad Men - Firefighter and I just started watching this show. So far so good.

Guiliana and bill - One of the ONLY reality shows that I will watch. I love this couple.  

Army Wives - This is one of the I want to watch shows. 

Friday Night Lights - I have seen the first season, but not the second. I need to catch up.

The Starter Wife - I read this book and I like Debra Messing. 

How I Met Your Mother - I was told that this show is awesome and that I should watch it.
Firefighter and I are going to start watching it soon I help. 

30 Rock - this is another show that has been referred to us. I hope that we get a chance to watch it too. 

Big Love - another recommendation.... how do people have this much time to watch tv????

And then there is the Glee phenomenon that I need to catch up on as well. 

Oh.... so many things to watch!!! So little time...