Tuesday, March 30, 2010

New Camera(s)

So I want a new camera, 2 actually. I want a point a shoot camera to keep with me all the time. I looked at this Nikon at Best Buy the other day and it seemed fun to play with, but it was a little pricey. The LCD screen is nice and large and it offers image stabilization, which is awesome. For some reason no matter what I do, my pics are blurry. I also like this camera, which is also a Nikon. It's got a touchscreen LCD which I thought was pretty cool. Then again I have a touchscreen phone that I am getting annoyed with. I am also starting to fall in love with this DSLR. It seems to be the same as the D40 that I have now, but it has the added image stabilization that I need. I also want to get this lens. I think it would be fun to use. I think it would help my pictures and my creativity. Decisions, decisions.

Monday, March 29, 2010


Lately I have been thinking a lot of relationships. The dynamics and the work that needs to go into them. It's so crazy to me that people spend their lives together, sometimes. Other times it seems like the most natural thing in the world to me. When I think about the time my guy and I have been together it doesn't really feel like as long as it's been. The idea of being with him for the rest of my life seems daunting at times and yet, so easy in the same breath. Creating a life together, having a family - they are so easy to say, but actually do it, seems a little scary at times. We have created a life, but yet in the same breath it doesn't really feel like a life. I feel like their should be more, like something is missing. Granted, this is not the life that I had in mind. Not that there is a right or wrong way to build a life, but I don't feel like we have done that. I thought by the time I reached 30 I would be married and have kids. Well, sadly, that is not the case. While at times I really tend to dwell on that and get depressed about it, there are other times that I feel fine with it and feel like I am in no rush.... that would shock my mother. (ha ha)

Another aspect of relationships that is unnerving is how well someone gets to know you. I know A pretty well, for the most part, but he knows me SOOO well it's really just amazing. It proves to me that he pays more attention that I give him credit for. When you think about the amount of trust you have to put in another person to be in a committed relationship, it can really scare a person. You are giving someone else your heart, your life, your self.... It's a real act of faith.

All this time that A and I have been together, I kept thinking that it wouldn't be any different if we were to get married. After talking to a friend of mine, she opened my eyes to the fact that it would change things. We become responsible to each other and have to be held accountable. I guess since I already feel that we are in a committed relationship, that things wouldn't change all that much. I mean in my eyes there isn't that much of a difference in being married and being in a committed relationship that we are in. There is the piece of paper and the legally binding contract and all... but in terms of commitment there isn't a difference. Although...having said that, I still would prefer to be married, then to exist in this constant state of "being".

In my line of work, I work for a divorce attorney, it really makes you think about your relationships too. I mean, it breaks my heart when couples who have been married for YEARS, like 20 or more, get divorced. That is a lifetime. I constantly ask myself, how could that happen? How did they let it get that bad? Did they even try to make it work? Divorce is a last resort for me ... but I guess if there are things that you just can't work out or get passed, then it's best to part ways and move on. Granted, I know people that have gotten divorces and it's been the best thing for them, my sister for one.

A relationship is a lot of work. It takes patience, trust, faith, loyalty and determination. You have to be willing to work at it to make it work. It's not going to be fun and games all the time.

I love A and I hope that when we get married and have kids the dynamics of our relationship remain basically the same and that we are always willing to remember what it was the brought us together. LOVE!!!! <3

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Grey's Anatomy: Another One Bites the Dust

Well another actor, one of my faves, is leaving Grey's Anatomy. She is claiming it's to spend time with her family and that now that she is a mother she has reevaluated her desire to work full time. While that very well may be the case, she also has a few movies coming out soon too. Hmm....head scratcher. I truly enjoy this show and her character. She was one of the original members and I will be sad to see her go.

When stars start leaving the show it makes me nervous about how much longer the show can actually continue. There are about 7 of the "original" cast members left. Then I think to myself that it almost seems to have run it's course. I mean there isn't too much more that they can wrote about I think.

Things definitely are different without George and will be different without Izzie. The original cast was so great! Oh well.... I am sure I will find another TV show to obsess over.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Sweet Little Surprise!

We got a new tv for my bedroom a few weeks ago. I didn't want it. It's too big for my room...42" flat screen. That is a bit ridiculous for my small room. If my room were bigger then yes I could see getting a tv that size. But I digress.... So we get home and hook it up. The picture is not good. I am more unhappy now then I was in the first place. And what ticks me off is that I voiced my concerns at the store, but NOOOOO we didn't listen to me. A and our friend who works at said store thought it was what was best for me and that I don't know what I want. Truth be told A knows me so well, it's scary, but not in this instance. Anyway....I have settled with this TV. Saturday we returned to said store where another friend works also and we were talking to him about TV's again. OY!!!! I think it was then that A truly figured out that I am not happy with the TV. At this point however, I feel guilty for not liking the TV because I don't want to seem unappreciative. I am appreciative, but would be happier if it was something that I wanted/liked.

When I got home last night from work, A had replaced my old tv in my bedroom and moved the new TV into the office - it's not staying there. It's far too big for that space too! I missed my TV... In addition to him moving the new TV into the office he also connected it to the computer and set it up so that I could watch "New Moon" in there. A is not a romantic guy. This falls up there as one of the more romantic things that he has ever done. It might not be saying much, but I truly believe it's the little things.

So last night, I got to watch "New Moon" on my 42" tv, with a great picture I might add in my own little mini-theatre.

I so love sweet surprises! <3

Friday, March 19, 2010


There are no words to express the relaxing, enjoyable mini-vacation A and I had. Even though we were moving non-stop for two days it was great to not have to worry about work, taking care of the dog, cat or house. It was even better to just be with each other. With all the crap we have going on, work, tests, the pressure of getting a firefighter/paramedic job it was just great to get away and forget about it all for a little while and just enjoy each others company. It is something I have found that we seem to need. We need to get away for even a little while just to recharge ourselves and get refreshed. Every once in a while it’s good to be like a kid again and just be in the moment. I was so incredibly sad to see the time come to an end.

Since we are Florida residents we were able to take advantage of the wonderful promotion Disney is currently offering: 4 Parks 4 Days for only $99 (each). And for an additional $26 dollars we added the park hopper feature….which I would totally recommend to EVERYONE!!!

So we started at Epcot. Right now at Epcot they are having their annual Flower and Garden Festival. Granted it may not sound all that interesting, but it was pretty cool to see all the figures of the Disney characters made out of flowers and other natural type materials.

After Epcot we went to the Magic Kingdom. It’s been a while since we have been there. It’s amazing how just at peace I felt being there. I haven’t been there in years, and after this visit, I truly believe that I could be a Disney-a-holic. I want to go out and buy all the Disney movies. I have some already, but I would love to get Peter Pan, all the Pirates, and additional classics. I can’t wait to go back. Thankfully my friend is turning 30 next month so I will get my wish.

It was very hard to leave. It was very hard to come home. To come back to reality. A reality that I would like to change a lot of at the moment. I just wish it could be A and I all the time like that. We seem to get on better that way. The more of US the better!!!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Toothbrush, soap, laptop ?

So we are headed to Disney tomorrow(SOOO excited)and like before every trip I make a list of what to pack. I go through everything including your basics: toothbrushes, toothpaste, deodorant, etc. As I was making our list today, I couldn't help but notice how our packing trends have changed. Not just A and I, but America as a society. My list consists of:

blow dryer
cell phone charger
i-pod charger
magazines, and other more typical things.

But when I got to the laptop I couldn't help but think to myself that it's a weird thing to be bringing with us. However, my guy and his new android phone doesn't have a wall charger. The only way he can charge his cell phone is on a computer or in the car, while it's on. That right there is a definite turn off of that phone for me. Of course we are bringing a camera and battery charger as well, but that is a vacationing necessity these days.

What uncommon things do you pack when vacationing??

Monday, March 15, 2010

this weekend...good friends...good times

This weekend was a lot of fun. It was awesome actually! I cleaned most of the day Saturday and then A and I went to Target and bought a bookcase. After it was assembled we got ready for a party. We were invited to a friend's girlfriend's birthday party. Coincidentally enough the friend's girlfriend is related to A's best friend. So we went down to North Port to A's friend's house for the party. This is something that we haven't done in a LONG time. It's amazing how life gets in the way of spending quality time with friends. The party was supposed to be for our friend's girlfriend, but it ended up being a reunion. And honestly it ended up better that way.

This is my fave picture of the guys. My guy is on the left, my friend whom I have known for 26... yes 26 years is in the middle, and on the end is A's best friend. The party was at his parent's house.

This is all of us. Such a great picture. I can really feel the life and laughter in this picture. We are planning another get together in June.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Yes! The coffee pot is off....

All bosses annoy their employees in one way or another. My boss has a daily obsession with asking me if the coffee is off. And we have a pot the shuts off after 2 hours. It's one of the most annoying things ever. One day she even called a co-worker and had him check the office, after I TOLD her it was turned off. That pissed me off. Her obsession stems from the fact that a friend of hers had a house fire that they were told was started by the plugged in coffee pot. My guy who is a firemedic (and looking for a job, if you know of one please let me know), said that it's virtually IMPOSSIBLE for a fire to start because of a coffee pot. I have told her this... and yet we have the, "Is the coffee pot off" discussion almost every day. It's gotten to the point at times where I doubt myself. I will have left the office to go take the mail to the post office and go back to the office to make sure that the pot is turned off.... PARANOIA!!! Oh well....It could be worse. She could hover over my shoulder every day. Which she doesn't. Thank goodness!!

Just needed to get that off my chest. PHEW!!! I feel better.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


I am seriously addicted to magazines. It's not a good thing. It's quite an expensive habit actually. I am hooked on Cooking Light, Southern Living, Clean Eating, and some random others. I also have an unhealthy addiction to bridal magazines. Now that we are making some changes around the house I am looking at remodeling magazines.

It's an addiction. Is there a 12 step program for this? Magazineaholics Anonymous?? I need help...

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


SO EXCITED! I just booked our Disney trip. We are going to be gone for 3 glorious days. The opportunity was too good to pass up. 4 days at 4 parks for $99.00. For an additional $26 each we added the park hopper option. SERIOUSLY?!?!? How can people NOT be taking advantage of this! We are saving so much money. I have never been to MGM so we are going to go there and to Animal Kingdom, neither of us have been there. And we are going to hit Epcot as well. It's a staple and you have to go. We went there for my first time last year and I had a blast. Plus Epcot has their flower and garden festival going on right now so I am looking forward to photographing some beautiful flowers. YIPPY!!!!! We are going to be gone March 17-19th, and then I have the weekend off! I am not a stupid woman...I planned that on purpose! YAY!!!!

Can't wait! Super stoked!!!!